The last bus blog
The sweetest words I ever saw on the road. Message sent and hopefully received.
Somebody reading? Anybody? Wondering? What’s next?
Will this be the Next? Or the Last?
I’m off the bus, not riding the bus, I’m off the bus, not riding the bus.
Sort of. Maybeee. I think I have my landlegs back. Not completely sure. Could be the never-ending chicken sandwich box lunches have me backed up. Maybeee. What day is it anyway?
By now we are all home. Some raced back to their timeclock lives, but not by choice. To most, this trip meant stretching the rent money a little tighter. No vacation this year. A few of us escaped such fate. We, the unemployed, the self-employed or possessed of extraordinary negotiation skills, lingered, meandering home at our own pace.
Most of us who remained a few days lobbied those who would presume to lead us. Followed up. Met the locals on their own turf to plot the Next. Will this be the Next? We are acting so. We are not defeated, that’s for sure. We even made a friend in Feinstein’s office. Will that help?
Meanwhile, Lazy Leslie spent a couple of days with Miro and Calder, Degas and Rodin. I’ve punched out. I am off the clock. Kiss that bus goodbye.
A little nostalgia on the Mall. A pause at the Friends Meeting House.
I must be the only queer around who regards DC a stop on my spiritual path. Freak.
By now we are all home. To, of course, awaiting emails and gentle prods. Was it a success? What was accomplished? Anything? Did we do more harm than good playing the marriage card right before an election, knowing that when the cards would be called, we would have no choice but to fold? Oh hell, who knows. Gay marriage came up in the debates, for good or bad, Gay Middle America is no longer invisible. Not that it ever was.
We never knew exactly what we were doing, only that we certainly were doing it. With a great degree of certainty, for such a bunch of amateurs, I might add.
Be sure, however, that the bus rolls on. The riders continue to pound the keypads like chimpanzees in fingerpaint. “Did you see the Miami Herald?” “ Can you speak at Stockton Pride?” “Check out the Washington Post follow-up story!” On and on it goes. We are not spent. Oh, oh so far from that…This bunch is just getting warmed up.
Good for us. We need to fight for our rights. I finally get it: It isn’t a question of “We want to be just like you,” as much as, “We are just as good as you.” The gauntlet has been thrown (for the umpteenth time, I know). Give in now or give in later. The deal is done.
I have a little slip of paper in my entryway at home. Looks like it came from a fortune cookie, but kind of like an Alice Water’s fortune cookie if there ever could be such a thing. It rings true for this moment: “If you wish to drown, don’t torture yourself with shallow water.”
What’s Next? I can hardly wait to see.